Updates

Its been quite sometime since ive given updates so here it goes. So the bfn was really a bfn which sucks but oh well. I decided to go on somewhat of a ttc break this month so havent really been temping or anything because i felt that if i didnt go on a break i might lose my sanity. Its to much stress month after month to see all those damn BFN's when i know i tried my ass off and did everything right. I know our time will come but that doesnt make things any easier. So this month im just kickin back, Next month we are going to try fertilaid. Ive heard some great things about that stuff.

Anyways, i ended up in the er about a week ago i was having issues with my heart. It kept skipping and stopping constantly and sometimes did it like three times in a row, i call them palpitations. Ive had them on and off before but never this bad and i was scared outta my mind. Of course the ekg didnt pick up on it because its such a short amount of time. They are not comepletly sure what was causing it so i have a follow up appointment on thrusrday to maybe be put on a heart monitor. Those palpitations that i was having like that only lasted about two days and pretty much stopped. So now i dont know if they will be able to catch them now.

So if that wasnt enough, two nights ago i woke up gasping for air and realized i had somehow vomited in my mouth while sleeping and was choking on it. Ugh that was so scary and horrible, ive never had anything like that happen before. I just dont understand why these things keep happening to me at such a young age.  I stopped drinking caffeine completly over a week ago, been drinking like 2 liters of water per day. Hopefully these changes help with everything, including the 30lbs i gained from the stupid fertility pills i took that didnt even work :(

Anyways, enough of that rambling lol. other than all that things are going just fine. Nothing really going on.

Award :o)

Again, im such a slacker. I dont know whats wrong with me lately but i can be sittin at the computer and totally just blow off blogging. Thats not what i want to do it just seems to happen. LOL  So first, i will start off with the " i love this blog award"

I got this award from Heather at " the road less traveled"

Here’s how this award works:
1. thank and link back to the person who gave you the award.
2. share 7 things about yourself.
3. award 7 recently discovered bloggers that are deserving.
4. contact those bloggers and let them know about the award.

7 things about myself:

• I met my hubby on My Space in Feb 2007.  
• I love italian food! 
• I love watching movies especially those romantic comedies that set the expectations of love in real life to high. I believe this is why most people are unsatisfied with their love lives. :)
• I am a huge twilight fan.
• I went to school for medical assisting but never was able to find a job.
• I Moved from phoenix arizona in 2002 to colorado springs, CO
• I am medically obsessive lol. I google everything which i think adds to my anxiety.

I would like to award the following blogs. There are so many others I'd like to add to my list but I can only choose 7 so......

1. Elly at Tears of love, Tears of pain

2. Jennifer at jennie for your thoughts

3. Jessie  at   My happily Ever After

4. Candice at Survivng Life
5. Beckie at Beckie's Infertility Journey

6. Nicole at Nicoles Life Journey 7. Tille at  A nuttier Life

Thanks Heather!!

TBC...

Reason, Season, or lifetime?

This is another of my favorite poems/Quotes.  :)

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

— Unknown

Been awhile again..

Well i have neglected my blog page again, what a bad blogger i am. I have had a lot going on lately so i really do have excuses!! I just thought i would write a quick post so people dont think i just dropped off of the planet :) I will write a nice, long post tomorrow about everything that has been going on! I hope you all are doing well :)

Life- thats just the way it is.

Sometimes i wish that i could just learn to accept that somethings in life just are the way they are. Nothing i can do or say would ever change the way there are. They just... are. Ive spent a good chunk of my life trying to think of ways to change certain things and people. Ive now learned that sometimes its just not possible. And, even though i have learned that, sometimes i can not just accept it.

I really dont think that there are many people that can say that their lives turned out EXACTLY how they wanted it to. I know i cant. At this point there are many things in my life that i saw happening differently. But all i can do is try to change the things i can and stop worrying about the things that i cant. I think i would have a lot less stress in my life if i could just  put this simple thing into play. i just have to learn to accept the things that i dont like. But how? How do you just learn to be ok with the things in life that really get to you? Anyways, thats about enough of my late night rambles. Hope you all have a wonderul night.

Project 365 day 5

Hims likes his cards hehe

Project 365 days 3 & 4

day # 3 one of my favorite pics ever

day # 4, memories r forever.