Tuesday, December 14, 2010

My year- 2010

So i thought i would do a post summing up my whole year, 2010. This should be fun. I cant say that 2010 was the best year, but it was OK. So here we go. This year i have changed in soo many ways. I feel like i have grown up quite a bit compared to 2009. It was not easy trying to find the person i was to become as an adult and i really struggled with it. I dont feel like i am the same person i was a year ago for the following reasons.
I no longer feel the "need" to be single and party with friends and drink. I have not had a drink in almost 9 months actually. That is so a thing of the past for me. It was hard to come to the conclusion that im just getting to old for that. I am finally able to be content in my marriage and not feel like i am missing out on so much of life.
I dont even listen to the same music. LOL thats a funny one, i used to be all about the hip hop and rap stuff but not anymore, i listen to alternative and country. Still some rnb tho. I guess listening to rap and hip hop reminds me of the person i used to be so thats why i listened to it.
I am a total house wife. Thats all i do. I clean, i take care of the kid. Feed and water the animals. Do the laundry. Cook meals. Make sure that everyone is ok and has what they need. Just call me miss suzie homemaker because thats what i am and i am totally ok with that. ;)
I LOVE my husband. LOL again that sounds weird but hubby and i have had a lot of problems in the past that caused us to separate multiple times. I never felt content with him and our marriage so i would find every excuse, some good some stupid to end things but we always ended up back together  <3 thats why i know were meant to be. Things are great for us now and were stronger than ever. I am more in love with him than i thought i could ever be and its amazing. Sometimes he makes me really angry but thats ok.
I have gained friends and i have lost friends. Many of my friends are no longer in my life for various reasons. I have out grown them. I know that sounds weird but its true. we just werent into the same things and i feel that a lot of them were "no good" because of what they stood for and represented. The ones that still matter and always were are still there. Shelby that means you! lol. my bff.
I graduated from school for medical assisting only to find out that no one would hire me because i didnt have 3 years experience. Oh well, moving along to better things.
My whole sense of style has changed as well. I do not feel the need to but top dollar clothing and stay with whats in fashion. Being that whats in fashion most of the time nowdays looks like crap thats ok with me too lol. I go for the comfy and cute look.
Target has become my new favorite store. It used to be wal mart not no more. that place scares me and i only go there when i really have to.
I have become addicted to having multiple pairs of pj's lol.
I have switched from black eyeliner to brown.
I tie my should now rather than just putting the strings in my shoes lol lol
I clean more than i used to, it just needs to be done.
I stopped drinking soda, 11 days ago and counting. I got a fantastic tat for pcos on my foot. It hurt like hell, see pics below.
I am back to doing webpage designs, mostly for blogs. Havent really done that since i was like 15 or so.
I am getting into photography.
I am learning that i am not always right, just most of the time lol
I worked as a clinicians assistant at a research company. That only lasted like four months and i really dont wanna talk about it haha
 i got into scrapbooking and digital scrapbooking and yes i am addicted.
I leanred to play magic the gathering just to make my hubby happy,

Now onto the highlights of my year.

I went to my first ever reniassance festival and it was freaking awesome i totally loved it and we plan to go again next year.
I finally got to see the colorado springs parade of lights after trying to for like four years.
My neice, Allura Chevelle Green was born and she is just beautiful.
I got into a pcos and pregnancy study to hopefully help us have a baby, fingers crossed. it was truly a blessing to find this study it pays for everything!!
Sadly i watched my very pregnany guinny pig, rosie, die from complications :( so sad. RIP Rosie
I have finally accepted god into my life.
I had a funky rash that popped up that not even like 8 drs could figure out what it was. 3 creams and like 5 antibiotics, 1 steriod later it just went away. It drove me and the drs nutty.
I became a great aunt! Audreyna Marie!

Some Current Favorites

Movies
Fireproof
My Girl (always)
7 pounds
Marley & Me
The lake House
Paranormal Activity
Juno

Songs

Stuck like glue
If i die yound
Do i
What hurts the most
While im waiting
I would die for that

Perfumes {because im addicted lol}

Curve
Roxy
Anything J Lo
Curve Crush
Burberry touch
and one that the bff wears, not sure what its called haha


This year i have loved, lost, hated, laughed, cried, been happy been sad, been surpirsed, been amazed, been tested i have learned i have forgot i have been scared i have been confidant. I have failed i have succeded. I have prayed most of all i have lived! And im thankful for all of it. 
Here are some pics from 2010, enjoy!




{Audreyna Marie}

{ Allura }


{Braedyn Kylur}


{lil geromy and jason}


{Lil Bro Patrick holdin Allura}






{left to right- Grandma with Allura Neice Dallas& Sister Lisa}

{Me and Allura}

{neice Zoe}

{neice Kayla}

{Sis Lisa And Mom}

{Hubby And Mom}

{Hubby And Me}

{Hubby working hard}

{preggo Rosie, RIP babygirl}

{My hubby, The Burger King LOL}

{Lil Geromy fell asleep in the waiting room}

{hubby and I at quail lake}

{at Quail Lake}

{rawr}

{dad fishing at the lake}





{Feeding the goats}


{me}


{the three of us}

{My PCOS Tat}

{me}

{sister Rhiannon turned 21}

{Sisters Rhiannon And Lisa}

{step brother Dayne and Lisa}

{me}


Terrific Tunes Tuesday

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I’m a goner
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh


The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls


I love, love, love this song!!




"Wait"

A fellow "ttc cyster" of mine had this poem on her blog and i think its amazing so i wanted to share it with all of you, i hope you enjoy it as much as i do.

"Wait" By Russel Kelfer
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, He replied.
I pleaded, and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait".


"Wait?" You say wait?"my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why.
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future, and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me 'wait'?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no', to which I can resign.

"And Lord, you have promised that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking: I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, " You must wait".
So I slumped in my chair; defeated and taut
And grumbled to God; "So I'm waiting, for what?"

He seemed then to Kneel and His eyes met with mine
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, darken the sun,
Raise the dead, cause the mountains to run.

"All you see I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust, just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me,
When darkness and silence was all you could see.

"You would never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of My comfort late in the night;
The faith that I give when you walk without sight;
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"And you never would know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that "My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dreams for that loved one o'ernight could come true,
But the loss! If you lost what I'm doing in you.

"So be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And through oft' may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all....is still...wait." 

Babies and things

So the hubby and i decided quite sometime ago that we werent going to be the type that goes out and buys the baby stuff until we are actually pregnant. We figured that would be setting our hopes to high so since we have decided that, i just go to the store and look at the things that i would get when i get pregnant. LOL so the other day i took my camera to target with us and took some pictures of some of the things that i want to get for our baby.
I totally love this, its blue brown and a light green, so i guess i could say that i would get it for a girl or boy. BTW hubby thinks it would be better to get one of these rather than a whole crib. that works for me :)

Now, If i knew it was a girl i would prolly go with this one its sooo damn cute!! Im totally into this brown thing anymore, its like the new black! :)
awww i loveee this is so cute. I really want a girl!!
so as i sit here having hot flashes and feeling like crap from the fertility meds, i look at these and it somehow makes it all worth it, I really hope this is our month, would be a christmas miracle for me :)