Thursday, December 23, 2010

A couple firsts for me this week.

This week has been very chaotic and busy around here. We were out more than we were home, hell i even think we spent more time at target than we did at home. This house was a disaster this morning thankfully i got it mostly cleaned up. All the christmas gifts are wrapped and i finally got my christmas cards sent out lol. Hopefully they get there before new years at this point. Tuesday night me, hubby and dad went to carrabas italian grill for dinner, omg it was fantastic!!! I had never been there before but it was surely a great place!
Last night my hubby took me to see TRON at the 3d imax it was sooo awesome! The screen was like five stories tall and like 20 wide. it was soo much fun and the movie was great too. Its been quite a long time since hubby and i have had a night to ourselves. When we got out of the theatre it was sooo foggy outside we could barely see 30 ft in front of our faces, so it was a pretty interesting ride home at 30 mph haha.
Now some updates about my lil infertility journey, I broke down this morning and took a hpt and well, it was a BFN.  Im pretty sure i tested a bit to early so im thinking im going to test sunday maybe. Not sure yet. My temps are still up so im not giving up hope yet. Im just so scared that this cycle will be a bust i think it will be the hardest. I keep looking at the presents under the tree and thinkin about how wonderful it would be to have something under there for baby. :(
Anyways im pretty sure that im gettin sick. My throat and the back of my sinus' are hurting, ick. Just in time for christmas huh.

Christmas Survey

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Well i will wrap but gift bags are sooo much easier!

2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial

3. When do you put up the tree? LOL if i had it my way i would put it up after halloween haha

4. When do you take the tree down? Sometime after the first of the year

5. Do you like eggnog? Ewwww no!

6. Favorite gift received as a child? A little doll that was a mermaid and her fin chaged colors in the bath!

7. Hardest person to buy for? My dad.

8. Easiest person to buy for? Hubby

9. Do you have a nativity scene? nope, not yet

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? mail even tho they turned out like crap and i just got them sent out today!

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? ummm Mac n Chesse hahaha

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? The santa clause or Prancer

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? In October

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Nope

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Ham!

16. Lights on the tree (colored or clear)? Blue

17. Favorite Christmas song? the carol of the bells!

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? Stay home

19. Can you name all of Santa’s reindeer? Dasher dancer prancer comit cupid donner and vixen??? lol

20. Angel, star or ribbon on top of tree? Star

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Christmas morning. i like to do things the traditional way.

22. Favorite children’s Christmas song? Jingle bells

23. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? The rude people shopping

24. Favorite ornament theme or color? This year is the first year hubby and i went and bought our own ornaments and we decided on blue glitter and silver glitter, so pretty!

25. Turkey or ham on Christmas day? Ham of course

26. What do you want for Christmas this year? A BFP

27. Does anyone in your family dress up as Santa? Nope

28. Age you discovered who Santa was?I think i was 8

29. Eggnog, hot chocolate, or apple cider? Hot chocolate

30. Traditional colors (red and green) or other colors? Blue And Silver

31. Do you have any Christmas decorations on your roof? nope

32. How does Santa get into your house? Chimney or magic key? Duh, when he comes he makes a chimmney to go down!

33. Do you prefer gifts or gift cards? Gifts or cards, doesnt matter really.

34. Favorite children’s Christmas Cartoon? Charlie Brown 

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Dont wanna be let down again.

So its been like a week or so since i have wrote on here, i apologize for that :) So here is an update for about the last week or so.
CD 14 woo hoo i got a temp spike, Its about that time!
CD 15 up even higher!
CD 16 again even higher!
CD 17 Still up!
CD 18 truckin along....
CD 19 same
CD 20 temp went wayyyyy low, was very dissapointed and was in a pissy mood all day long becuase i thought that this meant that 1, af was coming early or 2, i didnt actually ovulate. I was bitchy all day long and was so bummed out, i totally took it out on my hubby and my dad, Ugh poor guys. Anyways, i decided to look up why my temp would dip back down like that, there was two reasons. 1, short luteal phase, i know i dont have that so i kept looking and came across what is called implantation dip that can happen as early as 4DPO! I freaked i told hubby and i was so excited i wished that i wasnt so excited because i didnt wanna be let down again. An implantation dip is when u get a dip in your BBT after ovulation. When u get this it only goes down for one day, indicating that implantation has prolly occured. SO of course i got way nervous and thought, no my temp wont go back up tomorrow.
CD 21 OMG my temp shot up even higher than before, i was again, way excited! Told hubby and i could tell that he was trying to hold his composure and not get overly excited because its not a for sure thing. I couldnt help myself. Anyways Today is CD 21 and i had a dr appt this morning at the fertility clinic. It was my mid luteal appointment to see if i ovulated. The dr was doing the normal U/S and explaning it to me and geromy as he went a long and he was great! This was the first time we got to see this dr and i was totally impressed. Anyways, At first he told us he prolly wouldnt be able to tell if i had ovulated just by the ultrasound. Well he saw my uterus lining and it was totalllly thick and bright he said that means i most likely ovulated, woo hoo! I knew i had, then he was checking my ovaries and you could literally see where i ovulated on my left ovary, it was crazy and then he was for sure! Again, i was so happy. He said i should know by christmas if all the Baby dancing has paid off lol. I am sooo excited and so confident but i am trying not to let myself feel this way because i soooo dont wanna be let down again. I think if i have a negative test this month, it will be the hardest one for me ever!
Christmas is only a few days away and we are almost all done shopping and have everything ready. Im very ready for the new year and hoping that i will get my lil miracle for the new year!! We even already have names picked out. Now i would say what they are, but im so paranoid someone will take them lol lol. Maybe i will soon. IDK. Anyways thats all for tonight. I hope you are all doing well. Goonight

Terrific Tunes Tuesday

"Love Story"

Ay bay it won't end, won't end, won't end

Let's talk about love

This is my love story

Boy meets girl and looks in her eyes
Time stands still and two hearts catch fire
Off they go rollercoaster ride
Up & down and around...
Twisted all out they minds
And then his friends
Said "its too soon to settle down"
And then her friends
Said "he's a playa, slow it down"
They couldn't be who they was
Cause it just seemed like love
Wasn't on they side
But this isn't ...

Just another love story
Together we'll make history
I know because it's just too real
They'll be no end to our love story
And this ain't gon end up
Like that Casablanca
This ain't no fairy tale or fiction
This is truly
Ours for the eternity
They'll be no end to our love story

Chapter two...
When they meet up again
Second time around
See but they're just friends
But the feelings still strong
And it's been too long
To be trippin' like they ain't been missing
They on the phone like
Ay bay bay
Let's meet up today
Gots bout an hour or two
You might as well come thru

We can make it like it was
Just the two of us
Back up on that rollercoaster
Like we been supposed to
Cause this isn't

Just another love story
Together we'll make history
I know because it's destiny
They'll be no end to our love story
And this ain't gon end up
Like that Casablanca
This ain't no fairy tale or fiction
This is truly
Ours for the eternity
They'll be no end to our love story

Just when it seemed
Like all the odds
Were stacked against them
They came back stronger then before
Matter fact then some
Stronger then pride
Lookin' like them
Lookin' like her, lookin' like him
Stronger then hate
And the whole world too
Lookin' like me
Lookin' like you

Cause this isn't just another love story
Together we'll make history
I know because it's destiny
They'll be no end to our love story
And this ain't gon end up
Like that Casablanca
This ain't no fairy tale or fiction
This is truly
Ours for the eternity
They'll be no end to our love story
Ay bay bay it won't end, won't end, won't end