Thursday, February 10, 2011

Whats going on with the world these days?

So i didnt sleep much last night. So after i dropped Lil Geromy off at school this morning i went back to bed with the intentions of waking up around ten to do the things around the house that need to get done. Well, my phone rings its hubby and i need to go back to the school to get Lil Geromy because hes sick and its already 12:30! Wow i pretty much slept half of the day away. So anyways, I am on my way to the school and on the side of the road i see a drug needle and beer bottles. I am thinking to myself, what kind of person would throw a used drug needle on the side of the road right in front of a school! What if some young child found it and picked it up and decided to play with it? :( its sad.
So anyways, we get home and Lil Geromy pulls out a nice mens guess watch! Im like wth lol. Where did this come from? He said he traded some kid for it, in exchange for this nice watch he traded a popper?? lol im thinking that this kid prolly took his dads watch or something? Need to call the school and find out. And then. I turn around and Lil Geromy is throwing up the west side gang sign. He said his friend taught it to him because his Friends dad is a "gangbanger" :O. I told him to not throw up signs like that and had to explain to him why it was not ok.
So moving along, I still have so much to do today and unfortunatly i can not find the energy to do and even if i did have the energy i wouldnt know where to start. The kitchen, the laundry, the bathroom, the living room, our bedroom. So many choices lol. I need to come up with some sorta routine for the day that way i can just get up and go in order to get things done. There should be a manual for stay at home wives on how to get everything done without feeling so overwhelmed. Oh and in addition to all of that stuff i have to do , i still have to cook dinner and take a shower. We need more hours in a day.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

A daily dose of rambles and opinions

Over the last few days i have had many things come up that i wanted to blog about. I just havent found the moment that i truly felt like blogging, until now.

{Michael Myers}

The first thing that i wanted to write about is, Children watching "R" rated movies. On facebook i got many opinions and thoughts on the topic. It seems that many people think that its a matter of how mature the child is. I agree with this, to a certain point. I am not the type that will freak out because their is bad language in a movie. I am talking about, blood, guts, gore, sexuality, and over all, psycho killers running around hacking up children. I believe that watching things like this can take the innocence of childhood away. I definitly do not think that movies like this are in anyway appropriate for children under like at least 10. Even then its still questionable. Geromy and I, Do not let my step son watch anything rated "R" at all. No questions about it, if its rated "R" he does not watch it. However he does watch a lot of PG 13 movies depending on why its rated PG 13. If its just for minor violence or language, usually its fine. Does this make us to strickt? I dont think so. Now we also have many reasons for being this way. Lil Geromy unfortunatly is not like most children his age. He has a lot of emotional and psychological issues going on that he is in therapy for.  He says and does things that you would never expect to hear from an 8 year old second grader. But, would it be any different with any of our other kids in the future? No. We still stand our ground on our beliefs of childhood innocence. I am in no way saying that people who allow this are bad parents. Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs and own ways of doing whats best for their children. But honestly i cant see letting little kids see such horrible things. Thats just  me.
Next of my list of things to write about.

Motherhood Vs. Stepmotherhood
Is their really a difference?
The other night i rented this movie. Motherhood. As i was watching it, it got me thinking. Why is it that stepmothers do not get the credit they deserve?? I do all the same things a mother does for my step son. We have him exactly half of the time, the same amount that his mother has him. So naturally i am just as big of a part of his life as his mother is. I wash his laundry, i help with home work, school projects, the dreaded disiplin when he needs it, the showers , the birthdays, the holidays, the goos, the bad, the sick times, the health times,the lectures on proper behavior, i cook, i clean, i sometimes run my self ragged while being a wife and step mother. Yet on mothers day, do i get any kind of big recognition? No. I think that step mothers are just as good as mothers. No we didnt deliver them ourselves, but we sure do go out of our way to take care of our children. Just saying. In many movies and cartoons, Step mothers are made out to be horrible and wicked and in reality most of the time its not like that at all. We just want acceptance. I do not have a big hairy wart on my nose. I just want the best for my step son and will do everything i can to make sure thats what he gets. I love him like he is my own.
So to sum it all up. Yes stepmothers are mothers too!
Here are a few pictures of my step son. :)

Monday, February 7, 2011


Its been quite sometime since ive given updates so here it goes. So the bfn was really a bfn which sucks but oh well. I decided to go on somewhat of a ttc break this month so havent really been temping or anything because i felt that if i didnt go on a break i might lose my sanity. Its to much stress month after month to see all those damn BFN's when i know i tried my ass off and did everything right. I know our time will come but that doesnt make things any easier. So this month im just kickin back, Next month we are going to try fertilaid. Ive heard some great things about that stuff.

Anyways, i ended up in the er about a week ago i was having issues with my heart. It kept skipping and stopping constantly and sometimes did it like three times in a row, i call them palpitations. Ive had them on and off before but never this bad and i was scared outta my mind. Of course the ekg didnt pick up on it because its such a short amount of time. They are not comepletly sure what was causing it so i have a follow up appointment on thrusrday to maybe be put on a heart monitor. Those palpitations that i was having like that only lasted about two days and pretty much stopped. So now i dont know if they will be able to catch them now.

So if that wasnt enough, two nights ago i woke up gasping for air and realized i had somehow vomited in my mouth while sleeping and was choking on it. Ugh that was so scary and horrible, ive never had anything like that happen before. I just dont understand why these things keep happening to me at such a young age.  I stopped drinking caffeine completly over a week ago, been drinking like 2 liters of water per day. Hopefully these changes help with everything, including the 30lbs i gained from the stupid fertility pills i took that didnt even work :(

Anyways, enough of that rambling lol. other than all that things are going just fine. Nothing really going on.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Award :o)

Again, im such a slacker. I dont know whats wrong with me lately but i can be sittin at the computer and totally just blow off blogging. Thats not what i want to do it just seems to happen. LOL  So first, i will start off with the " i love this blog award"

I got this award from Heather at " the road less traveled"

Here’s how this award works:
1. thank and link back to the person who gave you the award.
2. share 7 things about yourself.
3. award 7 recently discovered bloggers that are deserving.
4. contact those bloggers and let them know about the award.

7 things about myself:
  • I met my hubby on My Space in Feb 2007.  
  • I love italian food! 
  • I love watching movies especially those romantic comedies that set the expectations of love in real life to high. I believe this is why most people are unsatisfied with their love lives. :)
  • I am a huge twilight fan.
  • I went to school for medical assisting but never was able to find a job.
  • I Moved from phoenix arizona in 2002 to colorado springs, CO
  • I am medically obsessive lol. I google everything which i think adds to my anxiety.
I would like to award the following blogs. There are so many others I'd like to add to my list but I can only choose 7 so......

1. Elly at Tears of love, Tears of pain
2. Jennifer at jennie for your thoughts
3. Jessie  at   My happily Ever After
4. Candice at Survivng Life
5. Beckie at Beckie's Infertility Journey
6. Nicole at Nicoles Life Journey 7. Tille at  A nuttier Life

Thanks Heather!!